Day 1 : It's all downhill from here

Well. I never thought I'd be so proud of myself for doing one little thing.

Woke up this morning, did some stretches, took my happy pill, painkillers, lots of coffee, bad smokey things, read twitter all day. I walked about a mile and got soaking wet.

I also went past three shops, two vending machines, and then into two shops, and didn't buy any chocolate at all.

I was even taunted and mocked throughout today by a Snickers wrapper that was in my coat pocket, and then throughout the evening by a Wispa wrapper that had missed going in the bin.

I so nearly bought a Snickers. I could taste the nuts and the chocolate and the sticky stuff and the nougat and I was all going to do it but I shouted at myself (in my head, obviously) NO JAMIE! DON'T SUCCUMB! and I felt for my wallet and I knew I had the money and I got myself a coffee and cor blimey guvnor I did it. I walked past that vending machine and didn't buy the Snickers. KERCHING!

Then I had to buy some milk in our village shop, and when you walk in there is this wall of chocolate bars IN YOUR FACE and there they were, the racks of multi-coloured temptation: Cadburys Whole Nut, Twirl, Wispa, Galaxy NOOOOOOOOOO!

I did it. I lasted the day without buying any chocolate. That's 45p towards the kids birthday present.

I was so hit by my newly discovered sweet tooth that the moment I finished my dinner tonight, all I wanted was a chocolate fix. I waited as long as I could, and then had some peaches from a jar thing. Liked tinned peaches, but encased in plastic. I can't eat actual peaches. The skin... ugh.

Anyway, more tomorrow, and maybe I'll unveil another highly interesting and not at all boring series of facts dressed-up and stuffed with artificial tension to make them into a story about my life.

I am going to make myself better. 99 days left to do it...

Peace out homies

Jamie x